...If Only...

Boys... I was mopping the floors this morning - which is not a favorite past time... but it is a time when things can slide past your mind rather un-noticed. Back and forth, back and forth the mop went in motion and I heard my mind say - "It would be so much easier on the children if everything Jim told them about me all these years were true." That is what I heard... in my minds chatter... and it got me to thinking -

I suppose it is possible that the reason - "James, Chase & Dean" that you boys have not come home is because seeing that I am a NORMAL person - Loving, Caring, "Moping the kitchen floor on Sunday's" kind of Mom... would cause quite a stir inside. It may be too painful for you boys to realize that I Love You and always have - All these years.

Well, today is your Step-Dad's Birthday - He is watching the Charger's and I am about to fix him his favorite dinner - BBQ Rib Eye's and a HUGE Costco Birthday Cake with a Football on top : )


I will eat a bite for each of you...
I Love you boys...

Navy Seals Skydiving Shane Patton

This is awesome!
I Love you Shane -
I Love you Jimmy -
I Love you Chaser -
I Love you Dean-o

: ) Mom...

Hawaiian Memorial Photo's by Bill Sullivan

Hi Boys,
I have had these photo's for some time and only thought to post them this morning. I will tell you the story of how I received these.

Bill Sullivan took the photos and when you look into the memorial plaques you can see his silhouette and camera. He tells us that one morning during his daily hike he came across a little path he had not noticed before. He took it climbing up the side of the mountain until he reached the top where a memorial stands. It over looks the beautiful Pacific Ocean and Hawaiian city below. He didn't have a camera with him at the time and he didn't know who the men were who were being honored by the memorial. Taking to memory what he read from the plaques he went home and researched the Internet. In his research he found Grandma Berdeski's email address and started with her. He sent her an email about this place and made the initial contact. He and grandma corresponded...


(this photo I found on Shane's My Space I think it fits in with these since he is floating among the heavens in this photo...)



Notice Bill's Silhouette in the stones?

Bill tells us that he takes as much water as he can carry each time he goes hiking so he can water the small trees in honor of the men and in honor of Shane and our loss.

He sent us these Photo's on July 4th 2007

Today is Sept 1, 2007

I probably should have posted them sooner...

Have a lovely Holiday Weekend... what ever you end up doing this Labor day Weekend.

I Love you...

: ) Mom