Email Update

Hi Boy's

I recently changed my email so Please use berdeski@gmail.com to send me a message.

I love you,

Mom

I Love You - Chase - Please come see me soon... "Happy Birthday!"

Shane I Love You... Happy Birthday... Love Mom

Happy Birthday Dean-o

Happy Birthday Dean-o

I Love You...

: ) Mom

Mar Vista Class of 78

High School Reunion Time...

Guess what... this past Saturday was my 30 year class reunion. Graduated Class of 78 from Mar Vista High School in Imperial Beach, CA.

Robert took me because I would have changed my mind and stayed home. This was my first one, I missed the 10 & 20 year reunions. I saw a lot of old high school friends and it was wonderful.

I don't look anything like an "almost 50" year old... with 6 children of her very own... eh!

All my Love

: ) Mom

Happy Birthday Jimmy

Happy Birthday Son... 27 years ago today you were born in Bethesda MD @ the brand new Bathesda Naval Medical Center. I was 21 years old and your Dad was 23. I remember the moment I laid eyes on you... I just couldn't believe it. What a miracle it is to have children. I fell head over heals in love with you in that moment - and have always loved you so much. Mothers love their children more than themselves.
Lorie, my child hood friend gave birth to Ben on the same day, here at Balboa Naval Hospital in San Diego. You were born something like 3 hours before he was. You two were friends as babies and probably still are.

Hope your Birthday is Fun today...

I Love You Dearly

: ) Mom

Hi Kids

Well, it has been since Thanksgiving since I have updated my blog. Things have changed for me here in Poway CA. I have opened a Child Care here at my house and for the first time in over 14 years... I feel wonderful. Having these little babies all around me every day and being home for my family... well all I can say is "Aaahhh".

It makes me think about having Grandchildren running around here someday...

I want you to remind you that I think of you all "every single day" that I am alive.

My Love to you all~

: ) Mom

A HAPPY THANKSGIVING....

HI James, Shane, Chase and Dean-

I am too full and sleepy to write much... Just wanted to say I Love You and have had you boys on my mind all day today. Jennifer too... Hope all is well with everyone - Grandma Patton and Grandpa too...

Huggs & Kisses...

: ) Mom

Happy 20th Birthday Dear Chaser -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

November 20th 2007

Hi Chase,

Happy Birthday to you… You are 20 now… I hope your day is filled with wonderful things today and always. There is a photo I keep in my mind – of you at about 18 months. We lived in the Panama Canal and your dad and I took you for a portrait. You are wearing a yellow jumper with a white shirt and had on white walking shoes… your hair was curly and blond.

Oh… how I love you son… thinking about you and holding you when you were a baby – we were so close… so very close. It breaks my heart to think of all the time that has gone by… without each other.

And here we are today… afraid of each other…
A mother and her children… afraid of each other…

I will always hold my vigil for you boys to choose to come home… look me up and find out… we are meant to be together… Mothers and sons… I miss you terribly… I love you enormously…

Take care and have a Blessed Birthday,
Love,
: ) Mom

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Happy Birthday to Shane
November 15th 2007
Would be 25 now…

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Happy Birthday to Rose
November 14th 2007
She is 11 and a Beautiful Girl…

This has been a busy week for me : ) Mom…

Marcus Luttrell - Lone Survivor

Hi

I am sending a message here to Marcus - I have been trying to reach him. I would love him to autograph my copy of Lone Survivor, so I may put it on display in the house with the flag and medals.

Hey- Marcus,
The last time my son, Shane, and I were together was Christmas of 1994 - he was 11 then. After that tearful good by to all 4 of my sons - the divorce that his father and I were going through took him from my arms "Forever". But not from my heart and certainly not from my soul. What I would really love to have from you - is some of your stories about Shane. Something to help me fill the emptiness I feel for him. I think he would be so happy for you share some of the fun "SEAL" things you both experienced during your Careers - and that would help me so very much.

Sincerely,
: ) Valerie

Poway Street Fair Nov 11th 2007

Hey Kids... It's me - The Avon Lady!

My AVON friends and I did the Poway Street fair this weekend and had a really good time to boot. We had a little bit of rain, mostly sprinkles... and that just pushed more women who love AVON into our booth and that was fun!! In the photo there you can see all my Avon Fragrances and they were all being sprayed so much that we really had that street fair smelling great!!

I also met someone there named Mike Lumpkin, as he and his group walked past our booth. He is a retired Navy Seal Commander. He is running for California's 52nd District as Congressman. He and his group were wearing I Like Mike teashirts. That was fun. I introdued myself to him and he knows Shane. We spoke for a minute or two and he gave me a hug -that left me with a warm feeling inside. I think I will vote for him.

Here is his web site: http://www.lumpkinforcongress.com/

Boys - you know I Love you...

: ) Mom

~Birthdays Galore~

Hi Guys,

Well... get ready because here we go!!

Rosie's Birthday is Wed. Nov 14th she will be 11

Shane's Birthday is Thurs. Nov 15th and he would be 25 (I know he will be celebrating in Heaven!)

Chaser's Birthday is Tues Nov 20th and he will be 20

How can one little ole' Mommy have 3 Babies in 1 Week?!

It is all in the Timing, eh!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE - MY LOVE & HUGS TO YOU ALL...

Love,
: ) Mom

Response to my Letter to the President

Hi Kids,

Well, I got a response in the mail for the letter I posted in this blog several months ago. When I opened the envelope the first thing I looked at was a note on a business card that read -

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Due to mail screening procedures, we

have only recently received your letter.

We appreciate your patience

in awaiting this response.
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The letter is written on DOD Stationary and reads:


DEPARTMENT OF THE NAVY
OFFICE OF THE SECRETARY
1000 NAVY PENTAGON
WASHINGTON DC 20350-1000

September 11, 2007

MS VALERIE ROBINSON
13514 OLIVE TREE LANE
POWAY CA 92064

Dear Ms. Robinson:


Thank you for your letter to President George W. Bush concerning the treatment you received during your son's funeral. I am answering on behalf of the President.

Petty Officer Second Class Shane Eric Patton, United States Navy, will forever be remembered for his courage and willingness to make the ultimate sacrifice for our country. You can be exceedingly proud of his enduring contribution to the freedoms we hold so dear.

I am deeply concerned that you feel you were mistreated at your son's funeral and truly regret any shortcomings in acknowledgement you may have experienced. Although I am unable to alter the past, it would be a privilege to assist you in resolving your concerns. Shane's military records are located at the Bureau of Naval Personnel. To request access to his records, you may call the Bureau's Records Review office at (901) 874-4885. We have contacted them in advance on your behalf, and they will be more than happy to help you.

I trust this information will be of assistance and sincerely wish you and your family the best in your future endeavors. A grateful Nation joins you in mourning the loss of your son. Again, thank you for writing the President.

Sincerely,

J.J. DRAEGER
Director, White House Liaison Office


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I called that number several times after reading it, but the line was always busy. I suppose it is time to Phone them again. April 08, 2007 is the date of my Posted Letter to the President if you want to re read it. To be honest, I am not sure what to say if and when they do answer the phone. I will have to consult with Grandpa Berdeski before I phone them.

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-A Quick update to the 2007 Fire Storm cleanup-

We had the Tree's cleaned up and removed - so the yard is looking pretty good again. We need to get a good watering into the grass as those Santa Ana winds and dry weather from the fires dried everything out. We have a well on the property so that will help. Things are looking good in the yard - Now for the Roof... which is next. We are so lucky and blessed that we have a house to call home and repair. All told - 88 residents of Poway, CA lost their homes. Rosie goes to the Middle School and 20 teachers and 80 Students were among those 88 residents who lost everything. It is a very solemn time here in Poway - and things will get better - They always do. Miracles come in uncommon ways!

I love you kids -
Come home soon...
: ) Mom

The 2007 Fire Storm has Passed our Area

Hi Kids,

Well - the fire storm has left our area. Our house still stands - Thank God! We have some damage to repair due to the Santa Ana winds. About 4 trees are damaged pretty badly. The tree man will be here tomorrow to take out 2 of them and try to save the other 2. It is going to be a lot of work. Robert and I purchased a chain saw today, but when we looked at the amount of work and how tall the trees still are... we decided to leave it to the professionals.

The roof guy came and gave us an estimate for that repair work. Pretty Pricey... we have also called the Insurance Co. and the President has declared this area to be assisted by FEMA. Hopefully we will get some additional assistance from them to help offset all this unexpected expense. No matter what... Robert and I will have this place back in shape in no time. : )

Once the reverse 9-1-1 call came in we stayed with Grandpa Berdeski, in the Guest house and we really enjoyed ourselves. I got to visit with my youngest 1/2 brother Phillip, who just turned 20 a few days before Deano's 18th birthday. We also spend quality time with Grandpa, Celia my brother's Joe, Lui, Steven, Michael and my two sisters Beth and Ginny. It was nice to visit with everyone.

Uncle Gary had to stay at his house in Chula Vista because his area was under close watch for fire too. The whole county was under watch really... at one point or another. So we didn't see him and his family this time.

Grandpa had a Pizza Party on the second night and we had 17 people at the main house. Grandpa and Celia bought about 15 pizzas... every kind you could imagine... My favorite is the Meat Lovers Pizza Yummy!!!... but ~ man o man... was I thirsty after that... I couldn't seem to drink enough water to quench my thirst. So then I was really stuffed with all that water... ugh.

Grandpa took about a hundred photos... If he emails me some I will post them here -

Well my dear boys... I Love you Guys!!

: ) Mom.

Reverse 9-1-1 Call has come in for Poway

Ok... we are out of here...
I hope we don't loose the house
I Love you

Fires In Our Area

Hi Boys,
In case you are worried about us here in Poway, CA due to the fires raging around our county - I am taking a moment to update you. We are mostly packed and are preparing to evacuate soon, as are all the residents on our block as far as I can tell. The winds raged last night and we have felled trees on our property. At 3:30 this morning I woke to the raging winds and then heard a tree crack really loudly and impact with the ground. Then again and again and again as the trees came down around the yard. Thank good-ness none of them hit the house. The roof is in shambles and hopefully the neighborhood will not burn and we will be able to come back home and repair the roof. The trees almost landed on the trampoline and are rested on the frame but the bed of the tramp looks unharmed - at this point.

The news channel 7/39 is expecting the winds to continue until Wed or Thurs.

We will be evacuating to Grandpa Berdeski's Estate in Bonita CA. We will be safe there... but it is hard to know what to take with us - I keep asking myself... Am I packing for a couple days - or am I packing the things I need if my house burns down... I grabbed the only photo's I have of you children on the wall... Jimmy, Shane, Chase & Dean-o from 1994.

My God... I am scared... I Love you all...
: \ Valerie

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAN-O

Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday Dear Dean-o
Happy Birthday to you...

I Love you

: ) Mom...

~ Today I Visualize....

Today I Visualize

I was sitting with my cup of coffee and reading from "The Law of Attraction" by Esther and Jerry Hicks on pg 112.

The topic is - If I can Imagine It, It's Realistic -

Jerry: Is there anything that we might want that you would consider to be unrealistic?

Abraham: If you are able to imagine it, it is not "unrealistic." If, from this time-space reality, you have been able to create the desire, this time-space reality has the resources to fulfill it. All that is required is your vibrational alignment with your desire.

This was a great inspiration for me to read because I realized in the moment I finished that section that when I take the time to envision Jim Patton and I spending the rest of our lives as the Friends we originally were - and meditate on those feelings from the past feeling them grow and blossom then we will all have the opportunity to be reunited.

I remember a conversation one afternoon - way back in the early 80's, I was having with your Grandma Patton, your dad's mom... She was planning a vacation with Judy Kearney - who was at that time - Grandpa Patton's girlfriend. I asked her... How can you go on vacation with her? She is dating your X-Husband. Her response has stayed with me all these years... She said to me... Well, Valerie, Judy and I have a lot in common, we both love or loved the same man. She does currently and I did in the past. So we have a lot to share by spending that time together.

You know... the two of those women are both still friends to this very day... although neither one is with Grandpa Patton today. This is an important lesson about human relationships and family relationships that needs to be pointed out. We can all be together today no matter what happened, yesterday.

That last time that we were all together, boys, hugging and saying goodbye. Looking into each others eyes... Smiling and giving kisses on foreheads and cheeks and lips... I will spend my time and visualize on those smiles and loving feelings. Those innocent loving feelings in that moment. We had no idea what our future would turn into - A Fear based future.

We have to let go of the fear of each other. I am "Mom" you are all my "Children". We are Love. I Love You all... James, Shane, Chase & Deano. You are the flesh of my flesh... the heart of my heart... for all eternity I will Love you children. Almost 14 years has passed and you are all adults... but in my heart and soul you are my children and always will be.

The time has come for me, at least, to refocus my vision on the future while letting go of the past - and see myself and Jim Patton again as the friends we were in the 80's. When we had a common goal of building happy a family of "all boys" together.

I Believe that by holding fast to this vibrational thought pattern, the Universe to reinvent our futures bringing our paths together once and for all. There is no need to wonder how or when... because Of this I am certain-

I know, like I know, like I know, like I know.... that you will all be home soon... with your Mother... who Loves You.

: ) Mom -

Robert your step dad

Rosie now almost 11

and... Little Robert almost 4

...If Only...

Boys... I was mopping the floors this morning - which is not a favorite past time... but it is a time when things can slide past your mind rather un-noticed. Back and forth, back and forth the mop went in motion and I heard my mind say - "It would be so much easier on the children if everything Jim told them about me all these years were true." That is what I heard... in my minds chatter... and it got me to thinking -

I suppose it is possible that the reason - "James, Chase & Dean" that you boys have not come home is because seeing that I am a NORMAL person - Loving, Caring, "Moping the kitchen floor on Sunday's" kind of Mom... would cause quite a stir inside. It may be too painful for you boys to realize that I Love You and always have - All these years.

Well, today is your Step-Dad's Birthday - He is watching the Charger's and I am about to fix him his favorite dinner - BBQ Rib Eye's and a HUGE Costco Birthday Cake with a Football on top : )


I will eat a bite for each of you...
I Love you boys...

Navy Seals Skydiving Shane Patton

This is awesome!
I Love you Shane -
I Love you Jimmy -
I Love you Chaser -
I Love you Dean-o

: ) Mom...